Memories Of Wei Zhang

depression

2008-10-19T17:48:00.003+08:00

i tink i'm suffering frm depression...i dun feel like toking to anyone...replying any messages....
i jus wanna hide in my bed n slp...

23rd birthdae coming in 2 daes...only wish is hope things ard me will turn better...

i'm so depressed!!

2008-10-17T01:01:00.003+08:00

its been a long time i since last blogged...i feeling so down n lonely nw...
alot of things hav changed since i step into SIM...though its onli the 1st sem but to me it seems very very long le...maybe alot of things happen tis few mths bah....studies, projects, friendships...i hav difficulties coping with all tis...
i realli tink i'm a big loser n failure...i nv manage to do things well...or maybe i dun hav the cut to be a uni student bah...

i'm looking at the watch tat we bought together at far east...i cant help but start to tear...i noe everything cant go back to last time le...i miss all the moments we used to spend...but nw...i dun tink i'm fit to be back in tis group le...i hope u all remain the bonding u all had..treasure it...

to someone who i realli cherish n treasure as my frenx: i dunno wat to do nw...but i hope u can accept my apology...i wish all the best for u...lastly i'm nt worthy enuf to be ur frenx...

soccer rox

2008-09-24T01:56:00.004+08:00

alamak...damn long nv blog le...recently alot of activities...i oso lazy to blog..cant realli recall last week wat i did but i rmb very clearly tat we won the soccer tournament!! haha...
we had 2 tournaments on thurs...the open category in the morning n inter-collegiate in the evening... weather damn hot...n affect my temper...i played quite badly in the afternoon..as well as in the nite...haix...though we won 3rd for open category n 1st in inter-collegiate...i feel i'm still nt there...i could hav played better...haix....

my clique

BIG G!

gabriel n me
RMIT ROX!

3rd for open category

kuan ming gab n me...

our supporters

after the finals~

haha...recently went to play arcade n saw tis machine...its like baseball style...quite hard to play...but fun!!

some old photos where we took at casuarina for our dinner after sch...

hmm...seriously i feel i'm drifting apart from our F hood...i miss the times we used to be together...go msia for shopping n dinner, J-CO for donuts, movies etc... but nw...i feel so different...maybe i'm nt frm council? or maybe everything hav changed? i dunno... i feel lost...

soccer weekend

2008-09-16T01:58:00.002+08:00

had a fulfilling weekend....went to ulu pandan on sat noon for our futsal competition...we r one of the 2 teams representing RMIT in tis SIM Futsal Soccer Competition... 1st round we lost le...all of us were quite demoralised..but we din expect much too... who noes the next 5 rounds we had tremendous results...winning all the matches... n ended top of the league!! finals will be held tis thurs...so pls come down n giv us ur support!!! We will win for the honour of RMIT de!!!

The Big G's

wif MR SIM!!

went back to bathe before went to gab's house for the bbq...were watching Liverpool Vs Man U match over there...haha...a tight match i should sae....went to find grala kaihoe they all at tanjong pagar at abt 11 plus....hmm...had a quarrel wif grala again....things turn worse than wat i expected...left them n went to yishun dam for a breeze until 6am b4 i went home...

oh no....my car insurance is goin to expire in oct soon!! time for payment again...looking for cheaper insurance company...anyone got lobang pls contact me...thanx...

MJ at gab house tml since no sch....guess left 1 week to relax n play b4 next week where i'm goin to start revising on my exams...i had to start early tis time round as there's alot to study...i need alot of help from my classmates too...i'm weak in alot of modules...pray tat i can cope with it =)

night cycling

2008-09-11T21:40:00.010+08:00

here are some of last fri ktv outing photos...jus got it nt long ago...haha...so guys when is the next ktv session man? we got to finish up our bottle....

jane n me

the guys and the siao char bos

cute rite?? lolx

joey, mi, curina

winda aka kong bu n me

group photo!

in the car

the 3 gays

we can be ugly too!!

chinatown

look at justin leg

the following day were the bash...here r some of the bash photos~

the guys...

justin,nic,gab, gracelyn and winda

wif may,joey and curina added on

went to tea party at six avenue on mon afternoon after our OB lesson...its a cafe similar to settlers and minds cafe...where u play games n eat...i guess the boss sure hates us...we almost turn the place upside down man!! were there wif justin, gab, joey tat gang, n the seniors joined us after their classes too..

nic, justin, gab and gary

haha...we realli had alot of funs there man...playing taboo in the beginning but change to some forfeit games...luckily i din kana alot of times...gab n keith were the kings of forfeit for that day man...

n randomly gab come up wif the idea of nite cycling...the response was good n we decided to meet at east coast park at nitex! initially was raining...but the rain stopped at ard 11pm n we start our route to esplanade!! hwever accident happen...n tats shiqi banged into edward's bike...luckily she still can joke...

our starting pt...east coast park

poor shiqi...but she still can pose...haha

our 1st checkpt at kallang bridge

our 2nd checkpt...fullerton merlion

F-HOOD

supper at lao pa sat

damn disgusting!

i really tink my SIM cliques r damn happening...we had so much activities everyday...like yest we went for badminton in the afternoon (healthy lifestyle huh...haha) n dinner at TM pastamania b4 we proceed to arcade n had a competitions at the basketball machines, bishi bashi, n lastly para para!! haha...winda realli chao ah lian...play para para so well man!! will upload more photos once i get from them...watched MAKE IT HAPPEN tis movie too...hmm..its nt very nice..so if anyone considering whether to watch tis show anot..my rating is 5.5/10...

nth much 2dae...after sch went to ulu pandan to train our soccer for tis upcoming sat competition...i injured myself..hope can recover fast enuf b4 the match...

finally...today is the 1st day of the week i reached home so early...promised my mum to be back for dinner...long time nv rest at home le...tml still got BC lesson...i got to slp early..if nt every fri i cant wake up de...

september memories

2008-09-08T02:33:00.005+08:00

wat a week..i finally had the chance to sit in front of my com to update my blog man...so sorry guys!!! i noe alot of u keep asking me to update... n thanx for the concern from u all...i nv knew studies can be so stress for me...realli...Uni is realli different...projects n tests keep ongoing...nv ending.. i had less than 14hrs of slp for the 1st 4 nights of tis week...almost died...but glad everything is over n had a great weekends...

starting of tis week 01/09/08, i spend both of my mon n tues night at amk garden drive thru mac...everydae study till see the sun then go home n take a nap b4 heading to sch again. tis week get to noe another group of ppl from my lecture class better...they were joey, jane, winda, curina, reggina n lastly the kid gracelyn...haha...
study at mac with justin, gab, jane n joey for BS test which is on wed morning...i tink mac will be my 2nd home soon..as long as tests n projects r available...i will be there...so spot me at amk mac during tests n exams period...haha...

after wed morning BS test, we were so relieved...but wait...its onli for a moment...i headed home straight for a short nap again n went to shiqi's house for our OB project which is due on fri noon. i left them for awhile at 11 plus n met up wif my classmates n frenx for a short soccer match at kallang cage at 12midnight till 2am. rush back for project again..met them at tampines mac where i see tis 2 hyperactive girl dancin in mac at 3am!! qi was teaching flo the dance step for the bash de...

flo n shiqi facing the window n dancing~ haha

thurs night is the same...met at qi house again...tis time round no break man...dateline is till tml!! we were rushing like mad...everyone was so tired after such a busy week...we took a nap b4 continuing..n thanx to gab who took all these photos~

our pageant girl, florence lim!! (clap clap)

maybelin..damn pro lidat oso can slp

knock out on the ground

the owner shiqi with her comfy bed.

n yes, we finally made it in time for our project...we did till 11am(where the dateline is 12pm) n i rush to sch 1st to print our report out n handed it in~ afternoon lesson damn shag...our group everyone was falling asleep...they all bth left halfway during break...i stay on but i oso cant concentrate much...haha...

after lesson went to sin ming to do my car audio system...n then went to fetch jane n curina b4 meeting the rest at chinatown for dinner n ktv-ing!!

camwhoring while waiting for justin n joey to reach.

finally everyone is here.

we had alot alot of xiao long bao...haha...but its super nice~!! free pls visit chinatown smith st 19A

after the sumptuous dinner, we were ready for ktv-ing!! gab intro us crystalbelle at outram...nt bad..cheap n gd...most impt we had the girls who almost every sec were laughing n getting high..everyone realli were so spontaneous n camwhoring...more photos will update once jane n winda passed to me =)

SATURDAY!!! our RMIT BASH at Zouk... plan to meet 6.30pm at tiong bahru mrt with the gals...but i hav learnt my lesson!!! nv be early...i reached at 6.15 as grala fetch me there...called them at 6.30...guess wat...all on the way only!! in the end i tink all arrived at abt 7...so we went for dinner b4 goin to zouk..

The event was fun...i like the dance man!! shiqi is damn damn damn gd!! nw she's my new idol...haha... jerome sang well too..i believe he nw should hav fan club in SIM le...lolx...nvm..if dun hav i will set up for him... n then comes the pageant...gabriel n i were like mad dog...whenever florence came out we shouted like there's no tml...we were so excited...i keep asking ppl ard me regardless i noe them anot to vote for our xiaomei florence...i tink they tink i'm mad..lolx..during the interval of the pageant..there was a drinking competition...i was sabo to go up..damn paiseh la...lucky my group won...but most irritating is the reward is another 2 jugs of beer...! i gav it away..the sight of it makes me wan to puke...haha...i feel my OG is realli damn power!! almost everyone r involved in the bash...even our NIC Leow walks home with the lucky draw 1st prize..haha...

i left early as it was grala's birthdae celebration..at 1st wanted to help her celebrate at cafe del mar..but tink god dun like her la...(maybe she's too black...:P), it was raining heavily n we had to change plan..so they decided to go CLINIC at clarke quay...they headed down to zouk from sentosa to fetch me..had a few drinks at clinic n the drinks r damn ex..but its very "hospital" over there...took a few pics of the birthdae girl...more pics will get from her soon...we left for ICON at 2 plus n went there continue to drink...everyone was so high...

grala with her act cute pose

met up with her family on sun for dinner at defu lane....after tat went back her home to cut cake again...

left her house at 10 plus n rush down to bedok reservoir there as my COSLAB boss called me for a meeting...they wanted me to be back n help them...i feel so lost nw...i realli wanted to help da ge cause he's the one who helped me up...nw coslab has some difficulties n i dun wan him to suffer alone...but at the other side i'm studying n i noe i definitely hav no time to commit...projects alone can kill me le...realli dunno wat to do...need some time to tink b4 giving him an ans again.

alrite..finalli i updated everything for tis week...time for bed!!

busy weekends again~ =(

2008-09-01T15:37:00.007+08:00

haix....a busy weekend again...tis time round is with birthdae parties...so many to attend...fri nitex went to find all my old frenx n we met up at ICON for a drink...end up got someone drunk loh...haha :P let's find out who get drunk~

n it goes to GRALA TEO~ haha... hugging the lamp post

a more close up

haha...tink u deleted the photos le rite? :P i got backup de!! lolx...

sat 30/08/08

wake up n went to gab house in the afternoon to continue the OB movie review write up...1st of all i realli wanna apologise to my group mates that i'm not writing tat much...seriously i tink i realli sux in english...whenever hav to write report i will be shivering inside my heart...i noe i sure die..cause i dunno how to start n how to continue...i'm sorry tat u all guys work much harder than me...i will try to make it up in other ways..i promise!!! overall i LOVE u guys...haha..

left his house at 6 plus go home change n headed to jianqi's who is my childhood frenx 21st birthdae..

mi n his cousins

cake cutting...happy 21st birthdae jianqi!

mi n kester...brother for life.

after tat rush to edmund's birthdae at LOOF...stay there awhile b4 i headed to tampines qi's house to meet up with them...in fact i guess i go le oso quite useless over there...sometimes realli hope they can keep me more involved...i'm willing to learn... =(

group photo..i'm blessed to noe them

31/08/08

went to my cousin 1 yr old birthdae at toa payoh safra....

JAVEN PEH

some random pic at a specs shop.

OB to hang up tis week... BC test on wed...hope all tis faster end n we shall enjoy our SIM bash at zouk tis sat! tix selling at $20...interested let me noe~

finally~

2008-08-26T11:50:00.005+08:00

weekend is like mad...rushing BC assignment...even yest nitex we r still rushing...nt on the project le...but on the printing side...even to print out the assignment oso took alot of our time...

was with my project group at shiqi's house on fri n sat nitex...working hard together in her study room....oh ya...shiqi's house toilet is damn nice!! the nicest toilet i ever went to~ haha... i love her toilet so much!

sun evening went to hav dinner with grala's n her family...had New York New York for dinner...after tat went to do some shopping with her n i left to meet mildred as she help me do the logo for my assignment...

had durian at 4 season durian cafe...$100

candid shot! i love her blur face..haha

time to work on OB project again! if nt i wun hav enuf time to study for my BS test next week...super rush man!

STRESS!!!

2008-08-22T21:37:00.005+08:00

argghh...so much work coming up...whole week study n study...guess tis coming weekend will be burnt...hav to stay at home to finish up assignment n projects...all due so soonx...tests coming up too...realli pray hard for all tis to finish asap...i need some break!

hmm...nth much 2dae...end sch n went to amk meet christina n sherin awhile b4 go for soccer...was toking to her n she gav me alot of advice...whenever she tok to me n console me...the more hurt i feel...i noe she realli meant good for me...but i start to feel more n more inferior...i start to tink i cant compared to him... grala's birthdae coming up too...i hav spend alot of my time tinking of how to make tis another memorable birthdae for her...feel quite down 2dae when i sms her but i get no reply...seriously i'm scared of the ans too .... i dunno y whenever i called her or sms my heart will beat very fast... i'm scared of the result i guess...

to grala:
nevertheless...regardless whether i can celebrate with u ur 20th birthdae anot...i hope u enjoy ur tis special day~ to me is also another significant date too...our anniversary...till nw while i'm typing tis blog...i hav known u for 1078 days, 25872 hours, 1552320mins and 93139200 secs since 080905...every sec n min i spend with u is the most enjoyable n precious moment i had in my life till nw...in fact i hav know u longer than tis...its been 8 yrs since i 1st known u...i rmb hw cute n naive u r when i saw u at the campfire...alot alot of memories we shared...thanx... lastly, i still wish to spend the rest of my life with u..regardless whether we r couple or nt...

i miss u.

hectic week~

2008-08-17T02:50:00.013+08:00

phew~ finally hav the time to sit in front of my blog to update the whole week of events...such a hectic week...with so much things n events goin on...

sunday 10/08/08

went to prawning at nitex when suddenly alot of ppl call me n sae they r bored...wtf..i was still mugging at home for my IA test...study quite abit le..so decided to giv myself a break n i met all of them up together...we went to sin ming bishan there for prawning!! haha..it has been so long we last prawned... chan meng, kaihoe, xueli n cassandra were there too... i brought along my txt bk to study as well...alot of funny things happened...we luff n luff until the whole place noe us..especially they challenged me to unhook the prawn n touch it...which i shouted so loud..lolx..will upload the video once kaihoe pass to me...

emo-ing

we 3 brothers n cassandra

sandra n me

10 yrs brother n still counting

the 3 gay lo

xueli!!

my achievement~

after prawning we bbq the prawns n sit there tok cock till 4 plus...dunno y suddenly some hav cravings for durians...so we drove all the way down to geylang to satisfy their needs.

mon 11/08/08

nth special 2dae...went sch for lecture n ended at 12 plus where i went to kovan wif gab to buy gym stuff...set to train myself fitter...we had yushinoya for lunch.

went home to slp after tat...at nitex went back bishan to find chan meng n his new chai prawning over there...

chanmeng n wanting

went off at 1 plus...wanted to go for supper n we ended in msia with xueli tis loner again... pump petrol, eat supper wash car then come back le..while on the way back to sin we had a jam..4 for us had a long conversation n everyone of us had our own relationship prob..suddenly i miss her alot alot..but i try my best to keep myself everydae busy in order nt to tink of her...i noe she still angry wif mi..

tues 12/08/08

tink ate something wrong in msia..had diahorrea again...dunno y my stomach so sensitive de...din went sch but end up meet my project mates at bugis J.Co ! we started our project...but ate alot of things too...the donuts r realli fantastic...i dun mind everydae hav it for breakfast =)

shiqi n me

funny face taken by gab

nice ambience

we love J.CO

left at abt 9 plus..i rush down to PS to meet clement,chan meng,kaihoe n huiping...huiping's birthdae so we met up for a short while for a movie...regret watching...stupid show A MONTH OF HUNGRY GHOST. pay $7.50 jus to watch documentary abt the 7th month...

after the movie i left them to meet may n justin to study at mac for IA. hardworking rite? Pam join us after my persuasion to ask her come down to mac...studied very very hard till morning b4 we went home to slp.

Wed 13/08/08

woke up in the evening n realised i was late for the movie nation held by student council at LIDO. no one told me is at 7.30pm...was late for the starting...overall find the show ok onli...watch it if u like adventurous film....to me i find it super unrealistic...

went to cine hk cafe for dinner...tok cock over there till 11 plus b4 all decided to head back home...me n may went to find gab n sylvester they all at villa bali awhile as it is sylvester's birthdae` HAPPY BIRTHDAE!!!

fetch may home to take her txt bk n notes b4 went to amk garden mac to meet justin to continue our mugging of IA... may was so tired tat practically she slept half of the nitex at mac...left me n justin non-stop revising...its been a long time i so hardworking leh...no choice..i realli wan to do well...same routine...we headed home once the sun rises...

Thurs 14/08/08

reach home bathe n continue to study as i noe i cant slp..if nt i cant wake up for lecture in the afternoon de...so study till abt 10 b4 i left house n call for cab to sch...to shag to drive n lazy...reach sch n went to library along to continue my revision...dunno y suddenly fell asleep until gab n justin came...

BS lecture but simply i was nt listening n keep revising on my notes...took a nap after lecture as the test onli starts at 7pm.

everyone was quite disappointed with the test cause its like the ques is quite irrelevant to what we studied...some did quite well but some started to worry...but its ok~ we still hav the final exams...everyone dun giv up k?? JIA YOU!m

y cliques decided to go for some relaxation as we were all so tensed up tis week...so we set to go to chomp chomp for dinner...as i nv drove 2dae i took bus with them...so excited cause been a long long long time i last took bus...as again...we start to camwhore again..haha...

chomp chomp~

went to ice^3 for ice cream as i wanna go find sherrin too...haha...she super gd loh...giv me so much discount...even my classmates start to like her too!!

group photo

busy looking at shiqi's phone abt a lame joke tat i din even pose..haha :P

all chocolate ice-creams

the gals~

LOUD SPEAKER!!!haha

gab fetch us back home after our ice cream...almost died in his car...glad to noe tis frenx cause i noe i'm nt tat reckless compared to him...siao one leh...take camry n drive like sports car...still wan to show me drift...make me luff leh...glad i reach home safely..slept at 12am. too tired to do anything.

Fri 15/08/08

guess wat?? when i open my eyes, i tot still haven morning yet until i checked my phone...wah..so many miss calls...n i looked at the time...ALAMAK!! its 8pm in the evening...OMG..i slept abt 20hrs...simply coma...i tink even wake up at all...realli i'm a pig...hav to admit...i miss the whole dae lecture...but no choice..haix...

called jerome n see where r they...most of my classmates were at khatib prawning~ -_-" ya..prawning again...jus diff location..decide to join them as i wanted to build bonds with them too...reach there saw jerome,his gf, khai, kuan ming, the gals like kelly, joyce etc they all...but the gals left soon after i reached...so left the 5 of us continue to prawn...after tat we went to bbq n hav our prawns supper...haha...everyone was too full to finish up so we played table soccer n losers hav to eat...as usual i won again..haha..luckily khai was with me...was jerome n kuan ming suffered...haha...fetch them home after tat b4 heading down to boat quay to find chan meng they all...was with sandra n xueli again...super happening nitex! shall update u guys again~ =)

National Day!

2008-08-09T18:02:00.004+08:00

Happy National Day to aLL!!! 090808... but tis date is nth compared to 080808...hmm..i had alot of memories flashback on 080808...its such a wonderful date...but i'm jus in sch for lesson n after sch went for dance n back home...

Thurs 070808! GaB's Birthdae! went to TM in the afternoon to help him buy food for steamboat in the evening.... bought alot of balls...especially fishball n meatball...haha...after tat we all went to singaporepools to buy TOTO... 8Million!!( in the end oso kana eat =( ) we oso bought the scratch n win thingy...where shiqi intro mi to play..haha... after tat went to long john to eat b4 fetching gab home...super rush for me as i alighted him i went home to bathe n took the stuff he need n head back his house again to help him with the preparations...

everyone was late due to the heavy rain...but hope all of them enjoy their dinner....gab oso let us try out his "dan bing" where he goin to sell it as business...wish u all the best! indeed the dan bing is realli quite nice~ after the heavy dinner of steamboat, we proceed to cake cutting...took quite a long time to finish it cause everyone was camwhoring...haha...(will update all the photos soonx)

gab's frenx went home after tat n left onli the SIM ppl...so we played MJ...very funny thru out cause we keep making alot of comments...we played till 3 plus...at 1st wanna go off le...then pam n shirong were playing blackjack betting over wat dempsy rd n ben&jerry icecream...in the end all of us join in n played for fun...but i find it boring n started to ask them play money...everyone started small...$1 or $2 lidat...but after giv me psycho...all start to play bigger...where the fun comes in...some even went negative...we played n played until 5.45, where we decided to end with a last game...so i suggested again tat all dbl up or play bigger...in order to clear debt n recoup losses..so they listened to my 'advice'... after dealin the cards to them i decided to relax one corner n count my winnings...where i forgot to look at my cards...n they had alr played for quite some time...i apologise to them n immediately took up my cards to see..who noes... i got "BAN BAN" double ace...they all keep making noises n kpkb...haha...sorry ah....end of the whole nitex i won abt 200+ .... i intro a new game to them too...baccarat...haha..next time free teach u all...

after winning them so much i oso paiseh...so i sponsor ting mei cab fare to NUS...n oso treat the rest breakfast at kovan mac...tiredness n fatigue came in n all of us were like behaving weirdly..haha...queueing for breakfast can take chairs n sit down to queue...saying lame jokes which is nt funny...lolx...especially gab...-_-" went home at abt 7 n took a wink b4 go for IA lesson in the afternoon...all almost died in the lecture...

Wednesday

2008-08-06T18:50:00.003+08:00

Last nitex went out to meet xueli, kaihoe n chanmeng at amk for some billiard n dinner...waited damn long..played till 12 plus then harry come n meet us n forced us to go drink with him...all of us were very reluctant...cause sianx n tired..but in the end still pei him go down boat quay...at 1st we keep asking harry to drink..then he tis idiot keep dun wan to drink though he lose in every single games we played..after awhile..i dunno y he fell asleep...we were so pissed off as we were supposed the ones to come n accompany him de...so nvm...then the next target is xueli!! haha..very ke lian...kaihoe keep forcing her to drink....drink until she vomits abt 5-6 times loh...more photos will update when kaihoe send to me...

2dae miss BC lesson again...nvm...go for fri de...went to bank to settle some stuff b4 go back sch library to meet them to study...end up i too late reach...go photostat some notes then go back le...had dinner with gab at adam rd hawker centre...he bring me there cause he say the food there nt bad...we had quite a heavy dinner...order stingray, lala, kang kong and fried oyster with egg...chill there for awhile n were toking abt our past relationship...thanx gab...i guess i will listen to ur advice...if u can do it y cant i rite? lolx...

our dinner at adam rd hawker centre

stupid gab..i taking photo of him then he oso do the same thing -_-"

looking forward to tml activities...badminton in the morning with OG n steamboat at gab's house in the evening to celebrate his birthdae~ =)

Weekdays

2008-08-05T15:34:00.002+08:00

yest almost late for school...damn tired...rush my way to sch for OB lesson...after tat we had lunch n the guys in my OG plus april we headed to NP for soccer...haha...we had lots of fun playing but the weather is damn hot..all of us were sun burnt. after tat went home as i hav no where to go...reach home at 6 plus...after dinner watch TV all the way till i fell asleep...had a few dreams n i dunno y i will keep having tis dreams repeating n repeating...i'm very tired n hate tis kind of feelings...
time to keep myself busy if nt i had difficulties in moving on with my life

Boring Weekends

2008-08-03T22:29:00.003+08:00

wat a boring weekends i hav...i tink i suffering depression alr...i dun feel like meeting the whole world...i dunno y...i feel very useless...Who can i tok to? everyone is giving me the same comments....but tats an ans or i should said conclusion...but hw to do it step by step? i dun even noe! i cant even overcome my psychological barrier...i hav nv been so pessimistic b4...i used to be the one who motivates 100s n 100s of ppl...giving them dreams n goals...but nw? i'm the one who has lost directions n dunno where i'm heading to. too many things happen tis 1 yr plus...i dunno is it when u r down everything around u goes down too... i'm rite here tinking abt grala...tinking abt my studies...n the most recent de is student council thingy.. hw much i wanna join in the camp do anyone noe? n i could onli be sitting here n tink...
tis one yr plus i hav hurt a few persons too(u noe who u r)...i'm sorry i cant be wif any of u all...cause i cant forget the past n i'm too afraid to accept any other gals to be my next partner for life...i noe i'm selfish... but i cant overcome tis! i hate myself too...but wat can i do...guiltiness filled my heart..n i believe she's the onli one who understand me. i hav nv love someone so much b4..but as saying always goes. onli noe hw to treasure someone when u lose it. i jus saw her videoclip abt her hosting n singing in a music cafe..my heart feel so pain cause i hate myself y i nv support or go see her perform b4.. in the past...i dun even noe abt her performance...i believe she noes i wun go tats y she nv ask me b4 =(
i guess tis is my retribution...i noe watever i do nw is useless...but i jus hope u can be happy everyday. seek for ur forgivness.

projects projects

2008-08-01T05:30:00.004+08:00

muggin in process...

yawnz...5.30am in the morning n i'm still awake...y? rushing OB assignments...i guess alot r still awake...i nudge them in msn all r still in the midst of doin...finally finish it...nt very satisfied but done...tml full dae lesson...9-5 ...goin to die...damn tired nw...haix...

weekend comin again...tis time round i make sure i hav to play hard b4 start sch again...but guess i will be quite lonely tis weekend...cliques will be at chalet...while i guess i can onli be at home =(

weizhang ah weizhang...y u so useless...tis 1-2 yrs...no matter wat i do i always failed...i been wondering still got hw long more god goin to fool me for...i hav been quite unsuccessful recently...guess its the fate bah...

down down down

2008-07-31T02:40:00.002+08:00

haix....wed nitex....nv been so bored for my wed...stayed at home whole day to rush the OB project...was doin half heartedly...the other half keep tinking y i din get into council? maybe because i was too straight forward? or maybe i'm stupid enuf nt to be more tactical in answering? to me...i always believe in expressing myself much more openly...i dun like to feel being constraint or wat...so wat i'm racist? does tat mean i cant do my things well? i always love to manage things n improve on systems...i had nv failed to do so...but tis time round, i dun even hav a chance...
maybe to my SIM mates i did badly for my interview...but life is always so unfair...judge by a single thing...till nw i nv regret hw i ans during interview...if tats nt wat u all wan to listen then dun ask mi the ques in the 1st place! if u all wan to hear the positive things then i'm sorry~ i dun wish to lie jus to do well in the interview...n if racist is such an impt factor to u all rather than my virtues, then too bad for me bah...
disappointed n sad,1st because i nv failed tat hard b4....i was alone at my swimming pool there tinking...memories of hw i manage my whole team of ppl in COSLAB in the past...if i doesnt hav the ability do i be able to earn tat kind of amt n help others earn too? memories of hw i being a Cadet Inspector during my SEC NPCC times...there were so much fun n joys....cause i always enjoy being a leader...
wat i can sae nw is good luck to my fellow cliques...sorry to disappoint u guys gab,shiqi,florence n maybeline...hope we wun be drift away cause i'm out of council...=)

Happy Birthdae Sherin~

2008-07-30T15:23:00.004+08:00

2dae wednesday...2 more daes hav to hand in my OB assignment le!! oh no...rushing for time nw...

yest after sch went to serangoon garden to celebrate sherin's birthday at F.R.I.E.N.D.S restaurant.... met up with james and melvin too...we were there early n they were discussing abt their proposal to me abt opening a cafe...it seems like nwadays is nt abt money...is abt dreams! i'm glad tat alot of ppl ard me now know what they wan to do rather than everyday work in exchange of money...we live for dreams dont we??

alrite back to topic...so we waited for everyone to reach n start our fine dining dinner...food was ok..but i tink portion damn little...cause at the end of the night i was damn hungry...after the dinner we swapped our place to the outdoor seats cause we noe we gonna get rowdy...grala brought a Absolute 100 Vodka...The 1st sight i saw the bottle i find it very familiar...in the end grala told mi is tat bottle i gav her -_-" lolx....she scared goin to spoil so she bring it to share...the vodka was strong n smell like nail remover man!! no mixer around...so i asked melvin to use his manpower of his cadets to go buy for us...n i merely make a comment i wan green tea for mixer n they realli get it!! com'on..whoever drink vodka wif greentea de? i scolded melvin n sae " they still young they dunno nvm....u nv go pub b4 ah??" everyone burst into laughter...luckily they bought a few packets of ribena...sherin at 1st was so reluctant to drink...but see her reaction after a few glasses...tok so loud n keep jio-ing others to drink with her...grala was the main victim kana aimed...haha..

Sherin the Birthday Girl

See the green tea bottle beside the black vodka bottle on the table?? -_-"

Only Sober one Christina Teo! always dun wan to drink.

followed by a cake cutting session, n she went to toilet to vomit...after our persistency...we managed to finish up the whole bottle of vodka b4 we go off...i drove home n when i see my bed i wanted to lie for a while but who noes its morning le...projects projects!!! dun slack anymore le WZ!!!

what a sunday~

2008-07-28T00:14:00.004+08:00

hmm...woke up abt 1 plus in the afternoon tis sun...went over to grala's house for lunch as she bought lunch for me...slack at her house awhile then she accompany me go sim lim buy my dad's laptop...after tat went to bugis junction to see oakley shades, buy some snacks n her accessories...its been so so long we hav been out together happily...guess maybe after we broke off 1 year le n i get to see things differently nw...

after tat went back her house n continue to nua...until dinner time went to coffeeshop wif her family..she wanted to dye hair but too late le...n grala...pls dye ur hair asap!! ur white hair really alot loh!!! so we went back her house to play wii...her mum bought wiiFIT...a mat/board for exercising...haha...took a few pics of her playing...so funny~

hope she can use tis game to help her grow taller!! lolx....

anyway after playing for awhile we all get tired...so i went to get my textbook to read thru while she plays with my iphone...

left her house quite early cause i need to come home n do my OB project...hmm...i feel glad tat we can still be tat close after so much things happen...jus like wat i told her...i wish her all the best in her life...no matter whether we will be back together anot...i will still take care of her for my rest of my life...its a fate tat i knew u grala...=)

wif her stupid face again :x

memories~

Sick!!!

2008-07-26T03:14:00.005+08:00

jus came back from soccer at the cage at kallang...we play at midnight!! alot must be tinking crazy!! in fact is quite fun...was there with kuan ming,jerome n nicholas...plus their frenx...was down with a fever n headache...at 1st dun wanna go de..cause feeling terribe...but i scare they sae i put them aeroplane...so drag myself down...

2dae miss BC lecture in the morning...feeling so cold tat i cant get out of my bed...went for afternoon lesson IA...after tat went for dance lesson at studio wu with shiqi...damn paiseh...cause 1st lesson then i like kinda noob...but i trying my best to master it...dancing n music is always my passion...jus tat i dun hav the chance to learn...wonder is it too late nw??

Thurs 24/07/08
no sch but we went back for OB project...waited for the student council interview in the afternoon...wait n wait n wait...finally my turn...was damn shocked when they bombarded me with racist questions!! hello...it supposed to be an interview..haha...but who cares..if nt selected then forget it...wat i realli hope is all of us can be selected...i believe alot of funs will be created..

Wed 23/07/07
nth special...except at nitex went to GUESS WHERE for mildred's birthdae...chey..tot alot of ppl will be there...in the end onli few of us...drank quite alot n i believe tis is the main cause tat i'm sick nw...

goin to slp nw...tml still meetin tat idiot daniel go watch drift competition at singapore flyers there...haix..everyone is mugging on their OB projects while i still can hav fun...worse still is i nt nervous at all...is it because during poly times i oso lidat but still get gd grades?? :P
but i believe uni is diff..promise myself after tis weekend i goin to pia n stay focus...

nt a gd day

2008-07-22T23:40:00.003+08:00

2dae is my mum birthdae!! happy 55th birthdae mummy!!! haha..must be wondering y my blog like so many birthdae celebrations...plus my mum de like every dae celebrating...2dae is different..cause my dad is back to celebrate with us...but unfortunately is tat while i'm on my way back home my mum called n said my dad had a accident at jalan kayu there...i'm so worried tat i speed all the way down to the accident area...my sis was there le...TP n ambulance arrived too..i noe must be quite serious le...
In the end i find out my dad collided into a Yamaha R6 bike...he flew off n my dad's car was quite seriously damaged...most dulan de is tat biker is a malay...he at 1st try to cover himself...but in the end he admit is his fault...my dad was on the right of way goin straight along the junction as it is green light...he wanted to turn right...he said he nv saw any cars so he turned..so weird rite...my dad car so big plus the head light so bright...i dunno y he din see...but i quite pity him too..cause is a new bike plus he is quite badly hurt...We all oso doubt he hav the money to pay for our repairs too...estimated i tink our repair need at least 10k...tat time i onli hit the rear light of my dad's car alreadi few thousands le...tis time is even worse...

anyway i reached sch 2dae early n meet my project mates in the library...in the end no books again..so we went for lunch n head for lectures...i tink last nitex din slept well in the chalet...i keep dozing off...after tat we went back amk for dinner at botak jones!! gab shiqi nv ate b4...damn mountain tortise loh...lolx!! :P

after tat gab got Mx-5 come n fetch him n pang seh us...so left mi justin may n qi...we went to amk hub for awhile...

2dae is the earliest nitex i'm been home...if dad nv accident i hav reached home by 10..but at least i feel very touched is tat my dad had the accident cause he bought cake for my mum...its been a long time he comes home early due to his business...

hw i wish i hav someone to care for........

Busy Sch!!

2008-07-22T10:46:00.005+08:00

jus reach home frm tim's chalet....happy birthdae TIM!!! haha...so long nv met up with my coslab ppl...all become so fat liaox...haha...almost cant recognise everyone..but dun worry aunties...u all still look so young n slim....=)

ok..mon after sch i met may,shiqi n florence at national library for referencing....in the end we stay there awhile cause all the books r nt relevant n we left for donuts!! haha...florence realli can eat man...eat n eat...

most funny is J.CO donuts staffs r so systematic...starting keep asking me which side donuts i wan...i dun realli get her then in the end i find out the left side of the booth is hers n she cant cross to the right side to get for me...cause right side got another person in charge...so lame...haha..then if i wanna get the right side de hav to pass the tray to another person to get for me...hello..the booth is like onli so big! then i wanna order coffee its another person in charge...order le hav to go another side its ANOTHER person to brew it...most irritated is i wanna ask someone to clear the table for us they like very lost dunno who should go clear...

J.Co

after tat we went to arcade...the gals r like damn gd man...especially florence...can play time crisis so well...the most interesting one is we 4 played one game that hav to throw the balls to the screen n hit the monsters...we like having so much fun n laughter...

fetch them back to tampines(which is my phobia) n head to tim chalet...nt much ppl around...jus the usual few of us plus aunties...had a great chat n we keep eating n drinking...watched a thai show BODYGUARD 2...super funny...but as usual i fell asleep again...haha...dunno y no matter i watched dvd or movies i seldom can finish the whole show without fallin asleep...regardless how nice the movie is...

The Older Generation in COSLAB

that's everybody at the chalet

me n mildred

3 Gays..its been so long we last took photo

our big bro

n when i woke up is..OMG...morning le...so i rush back home to change...n nw is time for sch again!!

AhMa n cousin Judith's Birthdae

2008-07-21T03:50:00.000+08:00

damn tired n the only day i can sleep the most is always sun!! yeah...n i nw try to make it a point tat every sun is a family day for mi...hav been neglecting my family for quite some time...i believe the happiest thing one can hav is to see ur family members happy...

left home n went to buangkok coffee shop for dinner...tis time round we celebrate my ah ma,cousin and my mum's birthdae..a simple dinner but everyone seems to be satisfied...oh ya..judith i still owe u a present k? =)

my niece cute rite

family, happy to hav my dad around

preparing to cut cake

the 3 birthdae "girl"

beloved judith n me

glynnis, judith n wz

went home after dinner which is around 10pm...kaihoe cm ask mi out for movie...i was so reluctant cause tml got sch...n nw i taking my studies very seriously hoh...so all my dear frenx pls understand i'm not the past weizhang anymore...everydae can go play with u all..haha

anyway drag my feet n drive to cineleisure to meet the 2 of them n huiting for RED CLIFF...i was late n miss the starting...overall its a great show...jus tat the ending sux...reach the climax le n it shows "TO BE CONTINUED" WTF... but worth it to watch..so guys those haven watch pls watch...full of shuaige n meinu... n it enchance ur knowledge abt the 3 kingdoms...

after tat we went to MR BEAN for a drink...was discussing sch thingy with huiting as she is oso in SIM RMIT...fetch all of them back n finally reach my home sweet home...its 4am n i gonna slp...tml is a long day for me again...

1st Post~!! 200708

2008-07-20T03:19:00.000+08:00

Woohoo...tis is my very 1st blog n 1st post!! haha...nv done tis b4...used to tink only gals would do tis...but gab was rite...blog is a way to keep as memories...

anyway i guess i would try my very best to update it as frequent as possible...jus to let every of my frenx noe hw m i recently...1stly i wanna sae sorry to alot of my gd frenx n buddy...i believe after i started sch i hav simply no time to meet u all...maybe once or twice? projects r stacking up!! n for an engineering background of me + 3 yrs plus nv touch books at all is like super hard loh...i need to work extra hard in order to be on par with my classmates... luckily i hav a bunch of hardworking n smart classmates to help mi...feel so lost during the 1st 2 weeks in the rmit visit lectures...its like those australian lecturers giving lectures...as u guys noe my english is like half bucket water onli...n their english fling flang here n there...dun even understand at all..worse is they sae a joke i dun even noe it is until everybody luff so i oso jus join in n luff..

hmm...i noe tis 3yrs in SIM is goin to be tough for mi...but i'm prepared...cause i tell myself i hav to do really really well tis time round...its the very last time i got to study le...n everyone r pinning high hopes on me...For my past 1 year i had alreadi lost too much things...in terms of money, career n dreams...it had took me so long to stand up again..too much things happen tis 07-08 which i dun wish to mention anymore...those who noe mi well should noe...but i hav brighten up...cause i noe time is precious...n i wanna prove to everyone i'm capable..so much things r waiting for me to accomplish...

New environment, new lifestyle....i hope i can stand up long enuf tis time...which i'm nt sure whether i can anot...memories keep flashing back tis few daes n headaches r killing me...its exactly like wat i had in the beginning... i hate tis feeling...cause sometimes i cant even breathe...arghh..dunno wat to do...i'm trying to forget the pass but...guess i hav to go back to my doc soonx for medication...

Forget abt the unhappiness...2dae i celebrate my mum's birthdae at our place...its meant to be a surprise for her...she was so shocked!! left her so unprepared but i guess she's very happy de...woke up 2dae in the noon n left house to buy food n stuff for tonight party...most of my relatives n her frenx turn up...the kids r so rowdy man!! turn my whole house upside down...played wii with them n had so much laughter..i feel so young when i'm with them..haha...

happy 55th birthdae mum!!

happy mum with so many kids~

mum n her super long frenx

see wats the kids r doing in my rm

my cute little mopey

jus came back frm airport fetching my dad...his flight delayed due to typhoon...wth...in the end 2am then fetch him back...so tired 2dae...tml is my ah ma n beloved cousin judith birthdae...looks like tis weekend is super packed for family!

alrite tats all for 2dae...i guess its too long for my 1st post...haha...dun even noe hw to use...struggle for some time le...n its kinda late liaox...nitex!!